'Word Vomit' Notebook

Journaling, to me, has always been word vomit. I open a page, and write down everything that happened that day, everything I’m thinking, and everything that’s bothering me. Hardly ever is this medium used for writing about happy things. Journaling is the best type of almost-free therapy. You open up a page, and you complain until those things you’re complaining about no longer pain you.

The best part is, just like a therapy session, you don’t need to go back and reread your old entries. In fact, it’s probably better that you don’t because that means you won’t relive your old pain, and you won’t relive those pangs you were writing about in the first place.

This book is your ‘almost-free’ therapist. 

Anything you would tell a therapist, especially the things you would be too scared to tell a therapist, must get written down because it’ll help you clear it out of your mind, and it will help you deal with the things that you feel you cannot talk about. That is why this is your ‘word vomit’ book because those things you can’t tell anyone? Not even a therapist? Those are the things that are bugging you the most that need to get acknowledged, and those things are the safest in a book that no one will touch and no one will read. You don’t even need to reread what you wrote. In fact, it’s better if you don’t because these are the types of things that will make you feel terrible about yourself if you reread them. 

This is word vomit and the best way to handle word vomit is by writing it down and moving on. Not revisiting your pain will help allow it to escape your mind until you no longer feel the need to scribble about the same things repeatedly. As your days pass, you’ll be able to process information better and better until the next shoe drops, then, you’ll write about that.

Notebooks are anywhere between ten and forty dollars. Until you feel safe enough, or able enough, to sit down with an actual therapist to work on traumas and anxiety, this notebook will hold every ounce of your pain.

As long as you let it out, it’s out of your body, taking up less toxicity because it’s been uttered by a pen. Allowing yourself to utter it is one of the bravest things you could ever do. It’s admitting you have a problem. Writing about it is an excellent form of figuring it out, understanding where the issue is, and allowing yourself to fully feel it as you spit it onto the page.

If there are people around you who you don’t trust, a notebook is more innocuous than a computer. Also, you can hide a notebook more easily than a computer.

Whatever you write about is your business and nobody else’s. 

I hope you find journaling to be the kind of place you can truly open your heart and mind, allowing yourself to heal from whatever pains you may have. Allowing yourself to feel them is the first step. The second step is dealing with them, and sometimes, because of the people you’re surrounded by, you can’t. 

That’s why and where a notebook can be so helpful.

I hope, though, that no matter what pains you, whether it’s people or not, you can find this type of journaling useful. You don’t have to write about your day, but the things that ail you. Allowing yourself to do that will help you rid of toxicity.

I hope you find this nudge into journaling to help you. It’s always helped me accepting my issues, that I’m in pain, and it’s helped me work through it at times when I’ve been unable to go to therapy. A lot of people, including myself, can’t really afford therapy. It’s those times when writing down your pain will most help you. If it doesn’t, I hope you find other articles on Armida Warrior that help you, or that you at least find amusing.