Poetry
Poetry was my answer to wanting to write lyrics and perform music, but being unable to. I always loved to sing and write songs, but I was unable to truly learn how to perform, and was unable to be one of those lucky kids who found a way around or to a recording studio. Instead, I found a way to create lyrics in a free, yet fun, helpful, yet freeing way. All I needed was paper and a pen. As my art evolved, I moved to creating word vomit.
To me, the best way to write poetry is without a plan, without an idea, and without trying to shape who you are by shaping your poetry. To me, poetry is best when it’s word vomit, the way you would scribble in a diary about all of your pains, pangs, and woes. My work is best when it has no thinking toward it.
Everyone has emotions every second of every day.
It became the best therapy for me to be able to craft each poem in about five minutes, as a way to ease pain I feel inside of my soul, heart, body, and mind. The more I write, the more healed I feel on my insides, which allows me to take care of myself better on my outsides. The more I create word vomit, the more healed my heart and soul are.
What’s a better reason to do something I love to do? Something that replaced a dream of mine in order to create, build, and start on other dreams?
If I had been able to write music, be a rock musician, like I’d wanted, my mind probably never would have found poetry. And, if I had been able to create rock music, I probably would have never begun my journey with electro-industrial, something that is very easy to create in whatever music-creator you can afford.
Mine uses the free GarageBand. I know that sounds bad, but if you listen, you might hear what I want you to hear.
Many of my poetry collections have been collected over one to three months, only being edited not for content, but for grammatical typos. Any grammatical errors that look to be errors are actually a part of the verse, which helps as I’m trying to create a way to be my soul as well as bare my soul.
I hope as you meander through the collections, especially through the excerpts for each one, that you find what I hope you to find: pain that has turned to healing, and power that has been found through finding oneself.
In order to bare my soul, I’ve had to allow myself to create that word vomit — something I’d never been able to do as someone trying to perfect their music. Now, my lyrics are poems, and, now, my art is more about feeling rather than about perfection or a sound or a dream that was to never happen. Poetry is also the easiest to produce — just a pen, a piece of paper, or avid tapping on a keyboard.
I still make music, yes, but different music than I’d ever believed I’d be making.
You can check out ‘Cacophony’ if you’re interested in noise that strives to get under your skin.
Until then, have fun and meander these poetic excerpts in ‘BookWorm’.
